Hello, May!

May started off with a lovely weekend. 

The weather was amazing & we were actually home to enjoy it! 

Baby M 

Baby M loves food. 

It's one of the things we can agree on. 

In this picture she's telling me a funny joke. 

Side note, best high chair ever. 

It has different level options, the seat is so easy to clean. 

The clear tray on top of the actual tray makes clean up so easy! 

Baby M has a crazy fascination with her books and everything on the shelves. 

This was tossed onto the floor seconds after she examined and tasted it.  

Adios Diaper Bag 

I made the switch to a backpack. 

My sister J bought this for Baby M and I love it! 

We used the backpack this weekend and we're forever waving goodbye to the big bulky diaper bag. 

I'll still use the diaper bag on longer trips, but the quick trips are for the backpack!  

Good Times 

Saturday night we were downtown and it was gorgeous. 

Yes, we were downtown watching the 

Thunder win - - THUNDER UP!! 

This is C throwing gang signs. 

I'm kidding, kinda. He's pushing the sun down . . .

The river area is so beautiful! 

BLUE 

Our new house has more of a backyard and Blue loves it. 

In our old house we used to have to trick him to go outside. 

I once had to crawl on all fours to make him go outside. 

Anyway, after hosting a bonfire, the neighbor's kiddos playing catch and eating hot dogs 

Blue was exhausted. 

He is an awful dog a lot of the times. 

I mean he's moody, crazy, eats things he's not supposed to eat and he whines all the time, but he is truly the greatest dog & I am so glad he's our dog. He melts my heart!  

Today is Cinco De Mayo, so that means everyone needs to crowd the Mexican restaurants and party! 

We'll be celebrating with our friends tonight, fajitas are going down tonight. . . 

#30RAK 1-5

C and I turn 30 this year. I'm okay with turning 30, means we have plenty more years of goodness and lots of memories made in the last 30 years. Plus, I still get carded & two weeks ago someone told me to have fun at prom . . . Still got it. 

Sure it stinks when you realize kids you knew are now married with children, but hey, we're forever young. 

C rocks 30 in June & I in August. 

We wanted to rock our last months of being 29 in a fun way. 

We chose to do 30 Random Acts of Kindness to celebrate our upcoming birthdays. 

We are spreading the love out over the next few weeks and I'll blog about 5 different acts throughout the upcoming weeks. 

Before you start reading the Random Acts of Kindness, know this

 C and I love people 

What attracted me the most to C was his servant's heart. While we stumble, a lot, we are Christians who work to spread God's love in unique and fun ways. Join us, get creative and promote goodness!  

Acts 20:24 

However, I consider my life worth nothing to me; my only aim is to finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me: the task of testifying to the good news of God's grace. 

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#30RAK

We love LeBonheur! We have a heart for kiddos and we salute the staff at LeBonheur, St Jude, all the other organizations & hospitals who help children and parents all across the world. We also salute those who work hard each day to find cures! You rock our world and we're forever grateful. 

 Why does the K look so jacked up? 

I put a C for some crazy reason and had to change it to a K.

 I'm loosing my mind people. . . 

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#30RAK

It's clear adoption is part of our story/testimony. If you don't know now you know. 

We are forever grateful to everyone who walked with us through the upsets, joys and who still keep us accountable & wipe our tears when needed. 

One person whom will never know what she did for me, is Jennifer. I met her through a mutual friend and God knew I needed her. 

God placed J in my life for a lot of reasons. 

See, she adopted two kiddos prior to our adoption. 

She gave me advice, connected me with the best staff & was my rock through this process. 

So when she announced she was adopting again, we had to bless this little cutie. 

Diapers and cute onesies go a long way! I love knowing a baby boy, my random Target shopping trips will now include looking for baby boy items. 

Congratulations to our friends and to everyone who is part of any adoption process!  

Three cheers for parents! 

 3 

#30RAK

Fresh flowers are amazing. 

I hate gardens, I hate seeing flowers in yards, but I love going to floral shops.

I'm pretty weird, I know.  

One Saturday I popped in, on my way home, to an amazing floral shop. 

These people know their stuff, love their customers and their prices are amazing. 

Holliday Flowers is the best! 

www.hollidayflowers.com

Well when someones in the hospital, you take fresh flowers. 

Fresh beautiful flowers. 

 4 

#30RAK

These two crazy guys mean a lot to us. 

For one, we've known them way too long, two we love their entire family & three they're legit. 

Buying dinner was way overdue for all these two have done for us. 

Their dad is truly a skilled handyman and has helped C on so many projects, he's the best.

Their mommy dearest is a gem. She's the best cook, nicest gal around and a God fearing woman. 

Sean is hilarious. He brings humor to every situation and he's full of life. What I love the most about him, is his concept of money. He loves people for who they are, not what they have. No matter who you are, rich, poor, he treats you the same.  

Caleb has a heart of gold. He truly has a heart to serve others and it's contagious. He's going places, you'll see his name in the music world one day, hear his name & his talents in a sold out arena. 

So proud to know this family & so blessed to call them friends. 

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#30RAK

Sometimes life isn't always grand. 

Sometimes life brings these crazy turns & leaves you wondering what the heck happened. 

To see someone you know and love become ill, leaving her with a lot of restrictions, making her body weak,  you pray for a miracle. 

While we're praying for our friend, we know her restrictions are costly. 

We bought a Whole Foods gift card to help with some of the cost. Whole Foods is a great place in Memphis, offering quality products at quality prices. 

We are Grateful to have an awesome store near by to give our friend options through all of her restrictions. 

Make Today Count! 

Friday!

It's Friday! 

This week dragged on, I'm not sure why. I think it's because I was wishing for Friday on Monday morning. 

So the Royals are in town - as in William and Harry. I'm pretty sure I would love to see them, but I don't think they're going to swing by Douglas Drive, but just in case, Baby M is on the lookout. No Baby M, they did not bring Baby George. 

Insert Little sappy story: When we moved in, Baby M couldn't reach the bottom of the window. Now she can see out of the window. She's growing! 

May

May fell upon us this week! I love May for a lot of reasons! 

Summer time goodness starts 

Holidays kick in 

Vacation time gets rollin' 

Mercedes graduates from college 

Mother's Day 

Cookouts begin 

Food 

So C and I had lunch this week. We picked a little pizza joint and I was not impressed. The prices were a little over the top and the food was okay, nothing to write home about. Thankfully I had great company, it's always a pleasure to get to hang out with C. Oh and use both of my hands to eat dinner, that's always a win! 

Those little cinnamon things were the bizniz though! I brought some for my co-workers and they were gone in an hour. 

I browsed some recipes online the other day and I fell upon this lovely recipe. I was a little skeptical about putting tortilla chips on the bottom, but I followed the recipe. Basically the chips formed some type of crust, not such a great crust. We ended up eating the stuff like it was a dip, with tortilla chips. Baby M opted for oatmeal because she's confused at dinner time royalty. It was a great dish, but it won't be a staple in our house. C swore he could taste the sour cream, but I think he was being a tad bit whiny dramatic. I face a problem with making meals in our home. . . the hubs is super picky. Basically meat and cheese with only select vegetables. I die. 

Recipe:

Cook Ground Beef - drain

Add 1/2 cup of water to beef and 1/2 pkg of taco seasoning

Cook beef with seasoning until most of the water is gone, about 6 or so minutes. 

Spray your pan with non stick spray

preheat oven to 350 

Sprinkle tortilla chips on the bottom, just enough to cover the pan, nothing crazy

mix in a bowl:

1 cup of sour cream 

1 cup of milk

1 can Rotel

1 can cream of mushroom 

spread beef on top of  the chips

then spread the mixture on top of the beef

top with shredded cheese

bake at 350 for 30 minutes

Sports 

 I grew up in Oklahoma, so I love everything about Oklahoma. At the moment, Oklahoma is causing me some sleepless nights and traumatic evenings as I watch the playoff games. I cannot watch the entire game, it causes problems in my marriage and household. So I try and catch the ending or just wait until annoying people tell me play by play. To add to my stress, OKC is currently playing the Grizzlies. Yes, I work in Memphis & married a Memphis native, so I'm out numbered in rooting for my team, but it's never bothered me. On Saturday I'll probably take some drugs and consider drinking while watching the game. It'll be a nail bitter I'm sure, but I'm so proud of the Thunder. I love to see Oklahoma doing big things and I'm forever grateful we have an awesome basketball team! Annoying things I love to say when they play: 

THUNDER NATION

THUNDER UP 

INSERT CUSS WORD HERE

FOREVER OKLAHOMA

Memphis . . . I love for good times, great meals and awesome friends. 

I attend Grizzlies games often, but I'm not a huge Grizzlies fan, but I am a Zach Randolph fan. Reading his story and reading how he helps his community, really makes me love him.  I think some people get the fame and  forget about their beginnings. This is true in every aspect - business professional, basketball superstar, whomever you are - never forget where you came from, ever. If you get a chance, read Zach's bio, when the odds are against you, push hard, give it your all and you'll do big things, guarantee it.  

 If I ever wear a Grizz jersey, it'll be for my guy Z-Bo. Memphis has a lot of crime and poverty, I find inspiration in knowing an Indiana native is spreading love in this city! 

This picture makes me giggle! 

Alright party peeps, enjoy your weekend! If you're heading to Talladega this weekend find my MIL and give her a hug. She'll be the gal following Ryan Newman . . . 

That's all Folks 

ABC's

Hello ABC's 
all about Mercedes 


A - Age: 29, only a few more months until I'm rocking 30. Where did time go? 

B - Birthday: August 5th 

C - Chore you hate: dusting. I love to look at all the pictures, the frames, the people, but it's so much. 

D - Drink: water and DP. I love DP. 

E - Eyes: Brown

F - Favorite color: It changes, but right now I love a pale almost nude pink. 

G - Gent: C who I think we should call JRodge, but no one agrees. 

H - Hobby:  Couponing, TLC Shows, Cooking, Baking . .. 
I - Indulgence:  Honey buns. FML. 
J - Job: Downtown Memphis, trying at times, but overall pretty rad. 

K - Kids: Baby M, Blue and Boomer, does C count? I'm kidding, kinda. 

L - Love: My family. I just adore getting pictures from them, texts, talking crazy, it's good times. 
M - Music:  Right now I can't stop listening to Eminem's Headlights song. I'm not sure why, but I cry every time. I guess hearing him talk about his mom and the hard times really puts things in perspective. I didn't have an ideal life growing up, but God knew I needed support and gave me 8 brothers and sisters to help me push through the hard times. My parents tried and I will forever respect that. I learned more through their struggles than they will ever know, ever. 
N - Nickname: Meche. My parents gave me that nickname and it sounds weird when anyone outside of my family uses it, but it brings a sense of home when I do hear it. 

O - One Wish: My wish would be for 3 wishes. . . I'm not greedy, I just need to cover some things. 

P - Pet peeve: When people don't take consequences well. Every action has a consequence, so man up and deal with it. Stop crying for help, handle your biz. 

Q - Quote: A bible verse C introduced me to, Acts 20:24 however, I consider my life worth nothing to me; my only aim is to finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me: The task of testifying to the good news of God's grace. I put this bible verse in my office and a lot of people have said it really speaks to them. It takes me to another level, motivation. 

R - Residence: Good Ole' Mississippi - side note, if you live in MS you do not live in Memphis. If you live in Fort Worth, you do not live in Dallas. Ha Ha 

S - Siblings: 8 beautiful people. They try me, but they love me. 

T - Time you wake up: 4:50 am Sleep is important, but planning is more important to me. I gotta work out, get Mercedes time and prep for my day. 

U - University:  Graduating next week from Ole Miss, forever reppin' The University of Oklahoma! 

V - Vegetables you dislike: Brussels sprouts, awful smell.  

W - Worst Habit: messing with my hair. 

X - X-rays: The teethies stay getting xrays. 

Y - Yuck: I hate sweat. Like smelling it, seeing it, grosses me out.
Z - Zoo (favorite animal): Hippos, panda, tiger. 

NASHVEGAS

Hello Nashville, TN

What happens when you ask your awesome husband to run a race, an out of town race? 

He agrees. 

What happens when you don't train? 

You almost die. 

What happens when it's 70 degrees when you run? 

You contemplate taking your own life. 

Hello Weekend Recap. 

So in January I asked C to run a race with me, livin' it up in our last months of being 29 . . . 

Well, it sounded great. Then we didn't train, then I didn't check the elevation until the week before, then I became obsessed with honey buns and soda... 

We arrived Friday night and were greeted by the greatest hostess, C's cousin and her family. 

I'm pretty sure no one cared that we arrived, they just needed Baby M. She was treated like a celebrity all weekend, partied with the kiddos and ate more plants than normal. 

I found videos on my phone this morning of these cuties playing with Baby M. In the video Baby M eats some household plants, dirt and almost eats a My Little Pony figure. Making memories should always involve eating. 

 President & Vice President of Baby M's fan club. 

The night before the race our dogs and Baby M hosted a private party. The dogs wanted to walk around the entire room all night, dancing and serving drinks. Baby M wanted to roll around and  host her own dance party in her bed. So needless to say, sleeping before the race did not happen. 

5 am rolls around and we're up to start getting ready for the race. I'm pretty sure C and I questioned loving each other at that very moment. Then to make matters a little more entertaining - traffic was a mess, momma nature was on crack and parking spots were a myth. 

The race is going pretty good, sure the hills are the devil, but overall the 70 degree weather is okay. Then I get to mile 8 and I want to die. I'm not sure what it was, but mile 8 was when I starting seeing Jesus. I saw the light, but resisted, I wanted to finish and get the medal. 

The race was a little different. The hills are no joke and should not be taken lightly. I'm pretty sure C and I will be retiring from longer runs, after we finish the Mercedes Benz half in Birmingham. Overall, I'm good on long runs... I like honey buns and soda, we like not training, we're officially team #5K's. 

                           

Not only did the race provide some heart palpitations, the NBA playoffs are keeping my health at risk. So glad to see the boys pull out the win, tying up the score! Sometimes I can't watch the games, especially the endings. I love Oklahoma and I know a lot of people love their state. I think it's awesome when people support their state! With that, I think it's great to support them when they're up and when they're down. I wore my OKC Thunder shirt during the race and I heard a lot of people say "Yeah, Oklahoma!" It's always good to hear love for my state! 

#OKCSTRONG

Storms greeted us on Sunday morning and this morning. Every storm makes me think of Oklahoma. When I was growing up we never took storms lightly. We always listened to the radio and stayed close to shelter, had a plan in case things got really scary. I have only seen one tornado, but I've seen miles and miles of damage. I guess in the storms, I remember the lives lost. While some think about how cool the storm looks, I think of all the people dreading and fearing the worst. When you see devastation in your home town, your state, you know it's real. 

As the crazy weather season approaches, think wisely and plan wisely. 

My morning view of the storms rolling in 

Alright party peeps, make this week super amazing! My evil twin will be in full affect as I take my finals, one week away from graduation week. . . 

Lovely . . .

WILD WOMAN 

So Baby M has a fantastic room full of random toys! It is soooo much easier for me to take her in her room and hang out. If not, our living room looks like a tornado and we're constantly saying "M, get off that, hey, stop, don't..." So I love her room. I have found that she is quite obsessed with looking out the window. 

Don't you use your lawnmower as a step too? Let's be honest - yours is probably not pink and it probably doesn't sing the ABC's. 

C is off on Mondays, so he and Baby M party it up. Like when he gives her hot dogs for lunch and she smiles. I die when he sends me sweet pictures. 

 Last week Baby M strolled to Target with me... and became a little devil mid shopping trip. Like you're to the point where your basket is full and you can't start over and don't want to just leave. . . So I did what every amazing parent does... introduced her to Puffs. Let's just say she loves them and I give her one just about everyday now. In this particular picture she's trying to find her puff... 

Nope, Baby M, not in Blue's bowl... 

TEXAS 

We went to Dallas this weekend and had a blast. It's nice to be surrounded with family and love. Seriously, our family is a blast - we laugh, eat, play games and really just relax. So it's a tradition, on Saturday mornings, if we're all together, the girls head to our favorite Mexican restaurant. It is hands down the best place for Mexican food. My recommendations are tamales, any breads and burritos! The place is Marquez Bakery and it's right next to the Dallas Cowgirls stadium. 

We're about to walk in and these little bunnies were sitting outside! Maggie is rocking 10 months with the bunnies and my niece is rocking her I-just-woke-up look. 

Adorable 

Let's laugh for a bit. This weekend my niece was heading to her senior prom - AKA big deal! So we're helping her get some last minute things when I ask her on Friday afternoon, "What does your corsage look like?" With a confused and disgusted look she says, "What is that?" So long story short on Saturday afternoon, about 4 hours before prom an awesome floral shop made a corsage and boutonniere for her and her date. The floral shop staff was so nice and they had this adorable fella to greet you when you walked in. He was handsome and Baby M kept saying "Wool." Nope, Baby M, that dog isn't Blue.  

My niece. This is right when she walked out, our family cheering and telling her how beautiful she looked. She, without a doubt is one of the nicest people I know. It's hard to grasp that she's graduating in a month. I remember watching her trot around as a crazy toddler and now it's a joy to see her love on Baby M. I'm so grateful that Baby M has such a great role model to look to. Three cheers for great nieces! 

10 MONTHS 

So Baby M was too busy eating Mexican food to really celebrate 10 months in 

Texas. So we're celebrating a few days late. Some people probably think we're borderline obsessed with Baby M, that's fine. I think when someone has prayed and waited for this gift for so long, it's not really obsessed it's just gratitude & gratefulness. We love being parents, I'll shout it from the rooftop. 

EASTER 2014

Yesterday was Easter. Yesterday I was in the nursery/kid's area. I love working with kiddos, they're a lot of fun and you can learn sooo much from them. I learned yesterday that shoes are optional, ants love candy and an Easter basket color is important. I also learned that some kids are happy with one egg, one egg, while some are not. In the midst of the chaos, the kids had fun. Mercedes was ready to go cry herself to sleep, but the kids had fun. I encourage everyone to help at their church. Find something to get involved in. C works in the media department, plays the drums and serves as an usher. I work with the kiddos and we really do feel good after we serve. It's really hard sometimes to want to serve, because most of us work full time jobs and the weekends are OUR time, the time to just relax. In the few hours I've spent in the kid's ministry is the times I've learned more than what I ever thought I could learn. 

I learned yesterday that to some Easter is all about candy. In the midst of everything, I saw a lot of sharing taking place, selfless acts by the smallest little kiddos. Oh and Easter is about what happened many years ago. About our God showing his skills in ways no one thought possible. He is alive today more than ever, no grave could hold him. Boom, take that Reese's eggs. 

I learned that not everyone has a lot, but they do the best with what they do have. 

I also learned about how I want Baby M to respect adults. Sometimes kiddos do not respect adults at public places, because they don't have to respect adults at home, but I choose to teach M to respect adults. 

Last, I leave you with what Easter meant to me. Our church does an excellent job of letting the kiddos know they matter. In fact, yesterday our church gave every child an Easter basket, yes even baby M left with a massive-candy-filled Easter basket, that my husband and mother in law will probably polish off today. What I learned is that kid's do not need a lot to be happy, they just need to know they are loved. I saw some kids almost cry when they heard they were getting an Easter basket. The thought of receiving a gift, mattered to them. I guess what I learned on Easter 2014, is that investing in the lives of the little crazy wild kids, is the best thing anyone could ever do. I hope Baby M loves to serve others, it's a blessing! 

Shout-out to Katelynn, she captured Baby M playing with an Easter egg during the hunt at church. . . I'm thankful she deleted the pictures of Baby M eating all of the grass. 

Last, I'm cheering for the Boston runners - run fast, hard and have fun! #BostonSTRONG

God's Timing

God's timing 

In 2005, I married the coolest guy ever. He was my high school sweetheart and was the only person alive that could make me so angry, yet the only one to calm me down! It's true, still to this day, when Lercedes, my evil twin comes to surface, he can shoot me a look that says "Calm the Ratchness down!"

So we started to try and have a bambino in 2007. We were scared about all the what ifs, but we knew we wanted kiddos. In about 2010 we made some doctors appointments that would bring some light to the baby situation. In 2012, we did more tests and were left with even more questions. 

To say we were sad is an understatement. One thing that held us together for so long is our love for God. I would cry alone often and just ask God, "Why us? Why can drug addicts and 16 year olds have babies, but we cannot? What did we do? What did I do, is it just me?" I think this is when God had popcorn and a Dr.Pepper and just laughed. Why? Because I was still in control of this situation. I had a whole team of people praying for us and loving us, but we were still in control. 

Time passed and I begged C to think about adoption. He had mixed feelings about adoption because he knew what could happen. He knew that we could make it to the 9th month of a pregnancy and then the birth mom could change her mind. He also knew he would be there to pick up the pieces and he wasn't sure how that would go. See, I'm tough and I'm a fighter, I will stand toe to toe with danger, but this subject was so sensitive that C knew and he was scared. I was scared, but I knew it was something we needed to do. 

So one night in December, I was chatting it up with God and I said, "This is too much. This situation will be the death of me. We want babies, but I need to understand your timing is not lined up with my timing. I love you and I need you to drive." This is when God put down his drink and got to work. You see... I had no idea, but God was stirring the pot at that very moment. C worked overnight and a good friend, who was also working nights that week, started the baby conversation with C. This said friend, has family members who faced infertility so he knew the sadness and worry that faced this very subject. He'll never know what that conversation will mean to me. I think God used him, working in the trenches of the hood, overnight that week, to talk to C. (Insert an amazing quote - God doesn't call the qualified, God qualifies the called) 

So I leave for work around 7:15 am, every morning and C hardly ever calls me before I leave for work. My phone was blowing up around 7 am. Lercedes comes to surface because I'm still running around like a wild woman doing my million items on my to do list before heading out the door. I cuss count to ten and answer the phone. C is on the phone and he starts our 10 minute conversation with, "I'm ready, let's start the process." Umm... C whatcha talking bout Willis? He tells me he's ready to talk about adoption and he wants to really fill out the paperwork and get started. 

(My drive to work)

We filled out the paperwork and started the process of talking to different organizations and agencies. I kept thinking, "Am I dreaming, is this really happening?" I have always believed in staying accountable for your actions and telling others about your goals because they can help you in staying on track. . . so at our Ugly Sweater Christmas Party ... I made the announcement to our close friends. I could see the excitement and the fear as they hugged us. Trust me, if you were among the friends, we were scared too. We tried not to show it, but we were terrified! 

Then late one night, after watching a documentary... yes. We're leaving the theater and I have a million missed calls and text messages. It's now almost midnight and said person is asleep so doesn't answer my calls or texts. The next morning she tells me someone we know is looking for a family who would like to adopt her baby. What? Long story short, we adopted Baby M in the middle of June. 

This is one story, I have many more about God's timing. I remember going through this journey and crying my eyes out because I felt so alone, I felt at times that God was allowing these things to keep hindering our adoption. In the end, I know he was asking me, "Mercedes, will you trust me?" God truly never left our side, my side, our family's side. He walked us through this dark time and showed his goodness to us, in time, in his time. 

In closing, I share this story today because just yesterday as C and I are working in the yard, a car stops. We have never met this woman, but she said she wanted to welcome us to the neighborhood and she also, from another neighbor, heard that we adopted baby M. She had some questions, as her daughter and SIL are starting the adoption process. It's funny, because God's timing has always promised some good laughs and some ah-ha moments. We never expected to share our story on a rainy afternoon, with a stranger, while wearing yard clothes and baby M screaming, but we did. 

So I leave you with these 5 pieces of advice:

1. I encourage you to trust in God. If you're like me, you want something NOW, not tomorrow, but NOW! Trust God and his timing. Had he given us a child early into our marriage, I'm not sure we'd be as close as we are now. God needed C and I to work through this trial together, God knew we were strong and knew I was controlling - it's the Lercedes in me. 

2. Tell others your goals and dreams, they'll keep you accountable. It's scary to tell people your fears and secrets, so choose wisely and be honest. Ask for Prayer, see #5. Good time to mention, we're hoping for a sibling for Baby M! 

3. Patience my friend, learn it, live it and deal with it. Does it mean it'll be easy, ha! No, it is everything but easy. Does it mean you'll keep it together, not a chance. I was a mess and still a mess. It's not easy, but the results are amazing. In his time, goodness prevails. 

4. Work together - be together. C doesn't communicate too well, he tends to let things roll or to not speak his mind - opposites do attract, I am the complete opposite. In this situation, I showed every emotion and C was different. I knew he was scared, the times he bites his lip, the moments when he'd ramble during an adoption interview, the questions he had for our attorney or the times I would catch glimpses of him from across the room with fear in his eyes. We were together, so nothing could stand in our way, we were a united force and together C and I can do some damage. 

5. Pray. Prayer is a magical piece of the puzzle. I can pray while I'm driving, I can pray when I'm in the library and I can pray among others. Prayer is a force that works wonders. I encourage you to pray and seek wisdom, talk to God and share your struggles, pray.

Have a wonderful week!